I had to speak my mind

I saw two policemen on the corner when I returned home today. First thing I noticed, was that they were both short. It doesn’t make them less effective as cops, so my judgment/observation doesn’t matter. As I reached my front entrance, I decided to speak my mind. I approached the officers, looked them in the eyes and said, Excuse me, I just wanted to tell you both, thank you so much for all the work you do. They looked surprised, but then their countenances softened. Oh thank you so much, we appreciate you telling us. (Or something like that.) I smiled and walked away. Even though there is so much friction with the police lately, I do feel secure with their presence, and I had to let them know that not everyone hates the NYPD.

Living Authentically.

It’s not in your head, these planetary pressures are FOR REAL

Everyone is feeling massive pressure in some way…

Pluto wants transformation. Uranus shakes things up.

If there are things in your life that haven’t been working… it will be shown to you by breaking down… and you will be FORCED to do something. If you don’t change, Uranus will do it for you… and it won’t feel good, but it will be for your highest good…

DO NOT continue to ignore what has been in your face for the longest time. Listen to your body, listen to your intuition… TAKE ACTION… and remember the answers are never ever outside of you…

Look at what is out of balance in your relationships, job, health, money, daily routines, home… Some of us are still unwilling to take 100% responsibility for choices and are still blaming others and outside circumstances…. How’s that working out for you?? 

Be truthful and recognize your shit!

I was bawling on Sunday about money (I haven’t gotten a haircut in about 18 months, I need supplements, and a bunch of other stuff…) and I was just at my wit’s end. I prayed– not for money, but to SHOW me what I need to do, what am I not seeing??

I was guided to reach out to certain people. My sister told me that my brother called her asking about me because I ignored all his calls for years. My initial response was, Too bad, I’m not calling him. Then I asked for his number. I had to let my grievances go. He doesn’t even know what I’m upset about… and to be honest, like really honest… it doesn’t matter. He is who he is, but I want him to be and do what I want. Really? I had to look at that. He can do whatever, JUST LIKE I can do whatever I want. Case closed. OK, so I texted him and immediately felt relieved. It wasn’t even a matter of forgiveness or anything like that. It was as simple as accepting what is. 

Before I left for work, I decided to take a snack that I usually take on Thursdays because of my crazy schedule. My guidance urged me to take it, and I gave it to a homeless person on the train. Later on, I decided to see my father, despite the fact that I have been “too busy and too tired” (although I am the one responsible for my schedule) and he slipped me some cash. YAY! Also, out of the blue, I got a text asking if I was available for a gig for a few months. I don’t believe this is coincidence. The energy of letting go of my bullshit, allowed other things to come in.

Suffering is a choice… and I’m over it already…

Living Authentically.

 

THE Life Lesson from Living Authentically in 2014

From this moment forward,

I take full responsibility to always make the best choices 

for my highest self. And if I don’t, I am aware that

 ALL actions have consequences. 

No one is exempt from this universal truth.

My new mantra:

Eyes Open, No Fear.

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simple truth

People have to learn their own lessons. Who am I trying to give advice, when my life is not in order? People will ALWAYS do what they want, regardless of what I tell them. I am fully aware that all the issues I have today boils down to taking personal responsibility. I create my life with my choices. I can’t help anyone see their own denial and delusions. However, I can BE love: by showing support, leaving out the judgment, harshness, and criticism. Negativity and blame do nothing.

Show love, it’s the Brooklyn way.  Notorious B.I.G.

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Introspection…

How many times have I done things because I didn’t want people to think that I am ______? (fill in the blank)

It’s not really about them, it’s about what I really think about myself… because if I knew that I wasn’t ______, why would it matter what someone else thinks?

On the other hand, maybe it is true that I am ______ and that’s what I am afraid of looking at…

Either way, my actions should be in alignment with my truth…

Living Authentically.

 

not a moment to hesitate…

I started my morning off with this message from DJ Rockwell:

I love driving around (or rather, being driven around, because driving in NYC can be is stressful)… and you only have but one second to take a photo… no chance for retakes, no time to focus… always on the move… not a moment to hesitate… and you never know what you’re going to get…

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small nurturing steps is all it takes to get things done

I was texting my friend a little earlier about the progress we’ve both made in our homes… (repairs, de-cluttering, organizing…) It always comes down to a time and money issue… So I procrastinate, which leads to more stress, worry, disorganization… But, I’ve changed my tune… all it takes is small, nurturing steps to get things done… (She replied, Blog on that… if you haven’t…) Being harsh doesn’t help me, the critical judgement of what I ought to be doing only discourages me and makes me feel like I’m bad… and that just simply isn’t true…

On another note, here is a photo I took yesterday… just because…

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the familiar becomes new

I am going through this death/rebirth process… I see the familiar with new eyes…

 

 

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How you begin and end your day makes all the difference…

I’ve made some lifestyle adjustments…

Instead of checking email and adding to my “to do” list first thing in the morning…

I now honor myself by starting the day centered, grounded, and in peace… which for me means Reiki and meditation… FIRST THING… even if I have to get up that much earlier… it is worth it! This way, I can trust my intuition and make decisions and from centered, grounded, and peaceful energy…

Now, I do meditation when I get home, to make a smoother transition. Truth is, the person I need to be outside is different from what I need to be at home. (I really don’t need to be Miss Bossy-pants leader all day!) Before bed I now put everything away. How can I start the day with everything topsy-turvy? Or sleep well during the night with cluttered energy surrounding me? Also, the very last thing I do is listen to soothing music while doing Reiki – instead of listening to JFK documentaries – don’t judge ;-)…

How do you begin and end your day?

Living Authentically.

 

 

This is The Fool Reversed…

The message delivered by the Fool reversed…

I can’t keep doing the same things over and over and over that I know are not good for me… that will eventually lead to an incapacitating migraine… or whatever else that may cause a setback… (that I’ll initially blame on something else and not my choices…)

a few hours of sleep every night…

followed by copious amounts of coffee in the morning… with milk to top it off…

after the 12th cup of coffee, there is no room to drink water… so I’m dehydrated…

and then I wonder why I am not more productive… why it’s so hard to stay grounded…

a dangerous cycle…

foolish, reckless, unfocused, irresponsible, not paying attention, and in total disregard for my health…

en route for a tumble… and I’ve worked too hard to fall on my head now…

I know better. 

This is The Fool reversed…

The tarot tells me the truth, whether I like it or not…

(12 cups of coffee is an exaggeration, you know, dramatic effect)

Living Authentically.